that was never really meant to happen
I still want a part of desperate living
even with the jaws getting sick of general pacifism
but that’s all in an evening screening . to be in
the USA no less , most mysticism seems inadequate to it ,
so whatever’s happening at least bears the ripped muscle
of a journey through a few paid-for programs . and I asked ,
I remember asking , about investments , financial instruments ,
and I got a few jokes about coca cola . you don’t want me to ball ???????
? ? ? ? ? ? I thought , fine , I’ll have to do it different , then a decade
of real episodes of real madness , which is right ,
all the anger in it , chopped up about gossip , the roots
and branches of the white pact through which compensation
falls forward . this is all a good body can do , keep up
with itself , with its expensive sexual capacity . I get so mad
sometimes , vamps , and I know I do that shit myself !
I’ve been talking so much and time still won’t open up
I told myself a story about a friend who did me wrong
and a river of blood just ran out the door